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Message from: Niamh

Subject : My grandad died and i still cry
My granddad died about 4 years ago but I still can't get over the loss.
He was like my best friend and he always played with me and looked after me when mum and dad were at work. He had cancer for many years before he died and he kept going from home to the hospital to the hospice.
Ever since the day he died I have cried every night so I lose a great deal of sleep and think about him every day and I always blame myself even though I did nothing at all!
I know the rest of my family still miss him but I am sure I am the only one who still cries over his death.
I also see him often in my dreams I don't know if it is just me wanting to see him or him actually coming down from heaven to visit me.
I miss him so much and even now my eyes are filling with tears. It was really scary when he died because it was my first experience of death and when we came home from the hospice the day he died the goosbumps marathon was on and it was the episode of the simpsons when homer became the grim-reaper This made me even more upset.