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message no. 1776
| Message from: K |
| Subject : Mum
i lost my mum december 07 i miss her so much i just can't cope with it my mind keeps spinning im not sleeping and it just seems to be getting harder and harder. i just can't accept that i will never see her again ive got brothers and a sister but i just can't talk to them ive got my mums birthday coming up and im really scared x x x
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| Reply from: Ellie |
Subject: Mum
Hi
I lost my Mum in June last year and I miss her all the time. I sometimes wonder if there’s something wrong with me as I don’t feel any better than I did back then. I cry all the time and have become depressed. I'm on anti-depressants now, and went to see a counsellor again this week, I felt that I needed to try and do it again, and I hated it, but I am going to go back and try and stick with it this time. I found someone to talk to before and I seemed to be getting on better, but then that relationship fell apart, and he was the only person I felt I could talk to about any of it so I went backwards. Another of my friends is seeing a counsellor as she finds it better to talk to someone who doesn’t know what has gone on. I don’t know if that helps, I’m sorry if it doesn’t.
When is your Mums birthday? I know how you feel, it will be Mothers day on the 2nd of March and my Mums birthday on the 3rd and I don’t know how I am going to cope that weekend. It is my brothers birthday the week before hers.
I wish she was here all the time! She always used to say that everything happens for a reason, but I cant see the reason for her being taken! Its now been 7 and a half months and I still can’t accept she’s not here. I keep thinking that she will phone, or if I go back home and go in her house she will be there sitting in the kitchen smiling as she always did.
I know people tell me it gets easier with time, and maybe it does in the distant future because I don’t feel any better and the hurt definitely hasn’t gone away. I don’t really speak to my family about it, but I meet up with my brother a couple of weeks ago and he told me how he felt, and he is who I have been worrying about the most. I just want to be able to help him, but other than saying I will be there for him if he ever needs me I don’t know what to do as I am still a mess myself!
I write to her and tell her things, but its not the same as being able to ring her up and moan down the phone about all the stuff I used to!
I hope that it gets easier for you, and I know that hurts as you have just lost a major part of your life. I hope to make my Mum proud of me and I’m sure your Mum is proud of you. xxx |
| Reply from: Rachel |
Subject : Mum
my mum died nearly 10months ago and i havent known how to deal with it. the 1st few months i was in complete denial about everything, pretended everything was ok and just acted like nothing was wrong. i didnt cry in front of any1 i had a few tears at her funeral but other than that, no1 has seen me upset over it. this is something i dont understand. and i dont think they understand. i miss her so much, she died unexpectidly and its so unbelieveable its like i dont believe its happened. my brother is 21 and lives around the corner but i never see him, he never comes over 2see how i am. my dad and i hv never got on, and since she passed things between us have got so much worse.
i saw a councillor, but i just didnt get anything from it. i keep all my emotions bottled up inside and pretend im fine, and seeking help i guess made me feel i was asking for help. and i dont do that!!
my mum dieing was the worst thing in the world, and i wud do anything to have her back. i dont even know if ive grieved about it, i just dont really know how to. at 18 you hardly expect to have to deal with something like this.
the one thing i would say is talk about her, it helps me remember. talk to any1 who will listen. i think it helps me even if the person im talking to doesnt know it.
ive never used this site before but a friend recommended coming on it. so if you want to talk, im happy to.
Rachel x x x |
| Reply from: missy |
Subject : mum
i know how you all feel , my mum died 6 years ago from breast cancer. even though it was 6 years ago it still breaks me into tears whenever i think or see a picture/film of her. loosing my mum has stoped me from doing lots of things in my life.
loosing a member of your family is one of the worst things that could happen it just breaks your heart into pieces.
Im in my teenage years now (15y) and so fare this has been my worst year, its just soo hard to carry on without my mum here :(. i mean all my friends always go on about " god i hate my mum so much" and i don't think they quite understand how hard it would be to not have their mum there for them when they need a shouler to cry on and about girly things you cant ask your dad about. i must say my dad is the best ever, its weird to say but i can tell him absolutly anything and know he will keep it a secret and help me out even if it is about boys! my dad tries his best to keep me and my sister as happy as we can be and always says we can talk to him if anything happens.
but theres times i just need my here with me, i just miss her soo soo soo much!!:( x x |
| Reply from: Rachel |
Subject : Mum
Im dreading mothers day too. Ive got work, because i cant really do anything else. Every1 will be busy with their mums, and i'd be sat at home alone.
The best thing ive done is given myself things to look 4ward to. On my mums birthday in October, i got a bunch of my girlfriends together and spent the day shopping and doing luch. On my 19th birthday in march, i have tickets to see westlife in concert. On my Mums anniversary im spending the weekend in London and going to see the Lion King. Keeping busy on days that remind me of my mum helps with the pain. I just remember her smile, and how i no she wants me to be happy. X X X X X
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