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Subject : i lost my boyfriend (he was my best friend, my everything) in a car wreck where i was driving, seing him pass right in front of me was what killed me inside. when he passed, so did my heart.
the guilt that i do and will carry for the rest of my entire life is so indescrible, so heart breaking, and terrible.
there are no words to describe the feeling of waking up every morning, and going to call him, then realizing...i cant.
the place where my heart used to be feels as it is empty. some nights waking up after having a dream of the wreck happening over again, makes me wish, i would have gone too, just to get away from this pain and emptiness i feel all day every day.
but then i realize, god has a plan for everything, although sometimes hard to believe, everything happens for a reason. you may go all your life, until the day that you die, not knowing what that reason is. but having faith is the thing that keeps me alive. horrible things happen to wonderfull people, but there is a reason for it all. just have faith is keep holding on.