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Message from: aaron - 17 Oct 03

Subject: y did she have to die

y did she die i told she'd die and now she has its my house its so smelly but its not fair in the early hours of this morning she died and now im so sad

Subject: hi aaron

hi
i'm sorry that sumone close 2 u has died. if u don't mind me askin, who was it? if u need 2 talk jus leave a message and i'll reply.
luv helen

Subject: y did she have to die

hi hellen it was my mom who died so i guess u can take it that i dont mind u askin me although i dont like to go into it coz it was tragic we have decided to clean up our house as result of this but apparantly it still smells so we r gonna get some febreaze hve u had anyone die in ur family if u did im sorry to hear it who was it nd how did they die dont answer if u dont want to i was just askin

Subject: your mom

hi aaron
i'm sorry it was ur mum that died. it mus b realy hard 2 lose sumone so close 2 u. dont worry about not wantin 2 go in2 it, its up 2 u how much u want 2 say. i fink u r doin well 2 talk bout it at all so only say wat u r ready 2 say.

the only experience i had of sumone dyin was wen my grandad died a while ago. he had senial dementia and parkinsons disease. i cant remember wat he was like b4 he got ill cos he was bad for quite a few years b4 he died. he hardly knew who ne1 was or were he was n wud get upset becos he didn't understand. i wud sumtimes look after him wiv my sis so my granma cud hav a break, even jus go shoppin. it was not nice 2 see him like that so in a way wen he died, i was glad cos he was sufferin so much. i felt guilty 4 sumtime 4 bein glad he was dead in case i was bein selfish. i still wish i cud remember how he was b4 he got ill but i don't feel 2 upset now wen i think bout him.

i hope u r doin ok.
take care
luv helen

Subject: me mum

hey there helen im ok to talk about it coz it is starting to blow over now so im coming to grips with it i hope

im sorry that u had to see ur grandad in that condition it must have been terrible for u i hope that i never have to expereince that

Subject: aaron

hi aaron
now that u feel ok 2 talk bout ur mum, i hope u dont mind me askin but had she been ill 4 sumtime or was it a sudden death? wen my grandad died we kinda knew it was gonna happen sooner or l8r so i was at least a bit prepared 4 it.
i noticed a new message on the board from richard who seems 2 b havin the same experiences as u, is he a relative of yours?
is ur house ne beta? i hope u dont mind me askin but y did it smell?
i'm happy to keep messagin u but remember if u prefer not 2 talk 2 much on this message board, u can always send a private message on this website and they'll reply to u by email or if u want 2 talk 2 sumone direct u cud try phonin childline on 0800 11 11 if u live in UK.
i hope u r doin ok.
luv helen

Subject: aaron

hey there helen yes ricard is a realtive hes me bro i dont mind u askin questions ill let u know if i dont wanna answer them. the house was smellin coz me familly r to lazy to do anything about includin me. well theres ya questions answered feel free to ask more ill let u know if i dont wanna answer them
cya

Subject: ur mum n richard

hi aaron
hav u red the msg i left 4 ur brother? i fink ppl r findin it hard 2 understand wat actually happend to ur mum. its seems unusual 4 a person 2 die cos of the hous they liv in. mayb, if u feel ok bout it, u cud explain a bit mor. ppl use this board 4 support n 2 share experiences wiv each other so u dont need 2 worry bout tellin us wat happend. plese be understandin. i realy hope u n richard r not jus messin around.
luv helen

Subject: help me!!!

hey well my grandad is not dead but he is on a machine although it is not a life support if he dosent respond to the treatment and morphine by the end of today then they are going to switch it of and let him die im so worried i dont know how to say goodbye an most of all i dont want to i mean im not as close as my sister is to him and i dont cry as much as her but is this wrong why dont i have any feelings a will admit i have cried twice im definatly worrie but dont know what to do at all thankyou
natalie
xxx