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Message from: Katrina, posted 07/08/07

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I had met an eight grader, Alexis, who moved to California not long later, and left me heartbroken. I contacted her day after day, remaining her best friend, until she suddenly stopped going online for two months.
My final reply from her was: "I'M FINE BUT PLEASE DONT WORRY ABOUT ME I'LL FEEL WORSE RIGHT NOW I'M SCARED FOR MYSELF I HAVE WAY TOO MANY FRESH CUTS AND NOW I'M GONNA GO SIT NEXT TO A BOTTLE OF JACK DANIELS AND A BAG OF COKE AND NO NOT THE DRINK I'M SO SORRY IF I HURT YOU I JUST CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE MY LIFE IS SUCH A MESS I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I DONT KNOW WHEN OR IF I'LL BE BACK BUT I JUST NEEDED TO SAY THAT I LOVE YOU AND NEVER FORGET THAT OK AND DONT LET MY STUPID ASS AFFECT YOU IN ANY WAY YOUVE HELPED ME OUT SOOOOOO MUCH AND I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR THAT....I HAVE TO GO JUST REMEMBER I LOVE YOU -CHERRIES AKA YOUR CELLMATE. I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL!!!!"

This hurt me more than anything, and I've had a not so great life, but it wasn't anything for sure. Exept days later, I recived an email from one of her friends to say she had died