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Message from: jeni, 23 Apr 07

Subject: still miss my mum

my mum died nearly 6years ago. At times i think, other people think i should be over it, should of axcepted that she has gone. But i stil have so many regrets!!
I was 16 when she went & was a horribile person, more interested in going out with my friends & getting drunk, trying to block out all that was real. The last time she saw me i was trulry smashed.
There is nothing i can do to take any of this back, even though i would give anything to do so.
My dad & mum seperated when i was 10, & my brother moved away a year before, neither of them have ever spoken her nameto me in the last 7 years, so it feels like i'm the only 1 who remembers her. I'm SO LONLEY!!!! I feel so alone!!!
i konw it isn't that recent, my life hasn't stood still (i wouldn't let it), i have been travelling done exams but i still feel empty.