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Message from: kirsty, 13 Nov 06

Subject: my papa

hi i lost my papa 3 years ago and i still cant get over it and then i lost another 6 of ma family members the year after that my friends mum that i was really close to i cry at night im only 14 and i want to end my life.

Subject: Hi Kirsty

Hi Kirsty, we're so sorry to hear about the death of your papa & the loss of 6 other members of your family. That's a lot for anyone to deal with. It's not unusual after a death to feel like you want to die too. The feelings you feel can be so intense and so painful it can often feel like the only way out is to not be here at all. Maybe you could read about "Coping With Suicidal Feelings" on the website. There are also places like helplines and on line where you can talk to someone day or night about how you're feeling. There's Childline 0880 11 11, the Samaritans 0845 90 90 90 and on line counselling for young people at www.there4me.com. I do hope you feel able to conatct one of these places it's important to know that this isn't something you have to go through alone. Wishing you all the best for now RD4U.

Subject: losing people close

HI Kirsty
I'm Kirstie.S. i'm a lot older now almost 24 but when i was 13 i lost my Dad an he was my world, my rock!
I didn't know how to cope! I didn't even know how to take it in! I felt alone an lost an that i was the only 1 feeling that way!!
Not long after losing me Dad i lost my tanti an then my Nana! An i felt as if the world was closing in on me an that i must had done somthing really bad to desrve this!! An i lock all my feeling away so no one could get to them or to me!! An that hurt like mad!! Then 5yrs after losing me Dad i lost me best friend an i've never felt so alone like the world was falling apart all over again!!
I know your proplie thinking god what does a 24yr old know how does she know what i'm feeling!! But i so do emperthise with you hun an i'm 10yrs on now an i so wish i'd been able to have some1 2 talk to when my dad died! I know this may sound mad and its easier said than done but find some1 you truely trust an talk to them tell them how you are feeling even if that is as if your on the edge an about to job!! I've been on that edge a few times an its the most strangest of feelings but if you've got some1 there to just pull ya back who you can talk to an tell them how ya feel its the best feeling ever!! Not @ 1st but it does feel like that after a while!!
If ya need to talk write back to me if ya want!!
Take care now
Kirstie
(Yorkshire lass)