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Message from: katy, 28 Aug 06

Subject: cant cope

i met my boyfriend when we were 11. just started highschool. im now 18 and 4 months ago he died in a car crash with my brothe, 2 of my cousins and my friend. it was also 3 days before i give birth to our baby boy so he never got to meet his son. my brother never got to meet his nephew either. i dot think i can cop any more. i havnt cried that much, but sometimes i wish i never had my son and the events that happened wouldnt have happened. i feel like so many people from my life have gone. i havent got any one to talk to . counselers read of a script they talk to everyone the same so they dont help. i dont think i can bottle things up for much longer. i try to be strong for my sone but everytime i look at him i see my chris. please talk to me if youve been through anything similar.

Subject: (no subject)

hello, i am so sorry to hear your news, firstly be brave, make up a box for your baby of photos of your brother and boyfriend 2 show your son when he older.
have you tried talking to a friend? dont keep feelings bolted up.
Keep smiling love to you xx

Subject: A reason to live

You have my greatest sympathies for it seems life isn't treating you well at all. Life has taken away very important people in your life, but at least it has given you one big reason to live...your son. Think that Chris, your brother, and everyone you lost would want you to live what they will never get to live and experience what they will never experience. This is especially true in seeing your son grow up. He needs you and eventually he'll fill up your time and life. Nothing will heal your pain but time and maybe all the little things that your son will add to your life; with him you still have a part of Chris.

Subject: (no subject)

my mum died , its not really the same, i know. i dont know if it would help, but spend a dat wen youre son is out, crying and remembering everyone and maybe walk around the places they loved to be. or maybe you could tell youre son about his father and uncle , and maybe even show him a small part of how you feel. try writing things down, the thigns youy cant say to people , that helped me. i hope you are ok.
eliza