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Message from: Jessica, 27 Jun 06

Subject: I miss him

On October 28, 2005, I lost my boyfriend. He actually committed suicide. I was six and a half months pregnant at the time. But I still miss him. He was in a lot of pain from a disease that has been passed down through his family, not that that is an excuse. And thankfully my son doesn't have it. But anyway, even though he put me through that I still miss him. Every mourning I hope to open my eyes and see him laying there next to me. I know have a wonderful son though, that reminds me of him everyday. I just wish that he sould have spent some time with his son. I think that it would have changed his outlook on some things that he had going on in his life. But like I said I still miss him and wish he was here. Now I just have to worry about how to explain it to my son when he gets older.