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Message from: Nat, 29 May 06

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Me and my grandma were so close, it was unbelievable!! I told her everything and she was always there for me whenever my mum and dad would argue.
When she died I was devastated. I had been with her the night before and she was fine. We were laughing and joking - like nothing was happening.
Next morning we got a phone call - she'd had a stroke. Later that day she had a heart attack. I went to visit her and couldn't keep it together. She was lying there only breathing with the help of a machine. She couldn't talk to me and she didn't look like my grandma.
When I found out about her death I cried for days. I couldn't accept I wasn't going to see her again. She was supposed to be coming to watch me in my first pantomime and had just booked her tickets.
At her funeral, the song played was one which i had redcorded with my singing group. It was called 'Can You Hear Me'. Whenever we sing it now it reminds me of her.
I still go to her grave and leave flowers. I talk to her, even though it sounds stupid. I don't think I will ever accpet the fact that she has gone and some nights I just sit and cry - but she will always be there watching over me and watching out for me...and I will never forget her!!