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Message from: Hannah, 15 May 06

Subject: This pain is just too real
i lost my dad on the 2nd sept 05 i had to start upper school 4days later, i found it hard to concentrate, nw my birthdays coming up it makes me feel as bad as i did then ive lost concentration n i cant think of anythin else i just cry inside all the time, no one understands i just want someone 2 tlk 2 hu understands n i i also fell out with a girl hu sed i wished her dad wud die so she'd no how i felt.
i just want the pain 2 go away.

Subject: i know what you mean

i know what you mean i lost my auntie to cancer last september and the last time i saw her was last june and the pain just keeps coming and i can't do anything to stop crying people say you get over it but do you?

Subject: Loses

they all think its so easy just 2 say get over it but its never been easy, theres no way anyones going to 'get over it'

Subject: i understand

hi i lost ma mum two month ago due to cancer she had had it for four years all them years i watch her suffer wanting to help her to make all da pain to go away but i couldnt do nuffing ma mum was so streong ans she dne it for her kidsa i know what you mean about the pain it unbarable people say they will be der for you but with tym they just fade away u expect ya mates to understand but they soon forget i carry on as normal i wish so hrd that i cud do dat bt i cant cuz everyday of ma life i had ma mum i looked after her when i came back form work now i go back to a empty house wishing dat dis was all a nigtmare if u eve wana tlk i here for u enjoy ya bday dats what he would have wanted whenevar you are having a low day think of him and how strong he was and then think you want to make him proud so keep tryin at skool so he can see all the achivements you are making keep strong shaz xoxo

Subject: loss

hi hannah
im sorry about u lossing ur dad i lost my dad7 months ago to cancer and no one can understand i have only just found this site and this is the first time ive been able to talk to young people my age none of my friends understand
and every one thinks im over it they have all forgotten i have lost count of how many people talked a bout there parents and said they whis they would die i just go up to them and say some of what t is like to watch a parent dying i dont think this is the best way to deal with people but i dont know how ele to anyway i know some of wat ur goin though so if you want to talk to me you can hope i have helped
ellie