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Message from: danielle, 15 May 06

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i dont know if you lot have seen the pic of my cousin Harry that my cousin Chrissie put on here !!
In the last couple of years, my Cousin Harry, Cousin Bobby, Aunt josie, My grandad and my mums cousin died 1 week before my grandad all of these people have died while me and my family were on holiday, i seem to be too frightened to be happy because everytime i be happy someone gets ill or dies im so upset at the moment i dont think that my grandads death has actually kicked in yet.

Subject: dont worry

dont worry about it . people wont die because youre happy, or if they do it is coincidence. i thought for awhile that because i was thinking of my mamma dying on the morning she died , id killed her. then i realised , maybe it was coincidence , maybe id been thinking like this for a while and only paricually remembered doing so on that morning. there are times youve been happy when no one has died. you must not worry that it hasnt kiked in about youre grandad . im still getting to terms with my mamma dying a whole year later. it takes people different times. take youre time, relax and enjoy time with people around you . dont feel youve killed those who have died. it is a natural feeling , but it is never true.
hope youre ok and this has helped. eliza