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Message from: becca, 25 Apr 06

Subject: can't carry on anymore

iv lost my mum, dad n grandad and between their deaths thr is a 2 year gap and i'm gettin really worried about the next person as it is nrly 2 yrs since ma grandad died so i have a feelin tht it will b soon. I'm 15 and have my gsce's cumin up soon and i cant sleep at night at all and if i manage 2 go 2 sleep i have nightmares about things like my mum n dad rnt rly dead n thn thy shout at me 4 negleting thm. I'm really startin 2 miss my parents rly badly coz it is jst starting 2 hit me tht i am never guna c thm again n all i want is a hug from thm. i have lots of flash baks of seein my mum rly ill n in the chaple of rest n afta these flash baks i jst wana kill myself so i can b in a happy family at long last n i have stoppd doin course work n things coz i jst think tht i wnt have 2 do it coz i am going 2 die soon.

Subject: (no subject)

huni, you need to try and be strong, do you think your mum and dad and grandad will want you to waste you chances of doing something really great in life! you could do anything you set ur mind to. i know how it is to lose people really close to you and so many! it does get better in time, but to help make the pain easier talk to someone you trust about how you are feeling i found that it helps. take care x x x

Subject: please

i no i dont no u but please dont do anything stupid iv just lost my best mate after he hung himself
and i lost my dad 3 yeasrs ago. talk to someone.
anyone......me if you really want.
just dont do anything stupid

Subject: (no subject)

becca u cant think like this, it must be terrible and i cant say i undersatnd what u are goin thru, but u have to go on if not for urself then for ur parents and grandad-they woould,im sure, have wanted the best for you, and thats means living a full and happy life-try with ur exams-dont worry about them too much but please dont kill urself!theres support out their if u need it-and theres people out there that care about u dont worry